Who I Am

I love superheros(not a die hard fan full of knowledge, but I like watching some of their T.V. series). I love adding my extra thoughts in paranthesis. I love Polly Pockets (especially the originals). I love Gilmore Girls (no matter what I'm going through I find it very theraputic). I like Harry Potter. I hate Ben Stiller. Politics upset me too much to get too informed about it (Ignorant I know, but I can't help it, I'm just happier staying out of it). I am a Mormon (member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints). I have a testimony of Heavnely Father and his plan for us. I have a testimony of our Savior Jesus Christ and everything He did for us. I love Christmas. I love pinterest. I love finding new ideas. I wish I was athletic but I'm not. I love my red hair. I love oldies music. I love puzzles. I love being inspired and motivated. I can get excited about new fun ideas really easily, and then sometimes my ideas get a little too big and complicated. I love dancing and wished I was better at it. I love jumping on the trampoline. I dont' like confrontation, but lately have felt the need to really speak my mind, even though I usually know that's not a good idea and it's not polite all the time to say what I'm really thinking. I want more than anything to be a better person and follow the teachings of Jesus so that I can return home to my Heavenly Father. I get frustrated if I feel people aren't really listening to what I'm saying. I usually can't control myself around sugar and eat it just because it's there (like sweets and such). I love pizza. I don't like change to food that I already really enjoy. I wish I like more foods. I want to travel and am scared to all at the same time. I hate scary movies and have a major fear of ghosts (it's so bad if you tease me I REALLY don't find it funny and will have a hard time sleeping the next few nights if the teasing invovles ghost stories). I want to be me but feel entraped by something, and I think that something is me. I'm holding myself back, but by doing this (writing all this) I'm trying to set myself free. You might think it is weird, but I'm just trying really hard to not care. If I want to be liked, I have to first be honest with myself about who I am and then like her.

Even as I thought about putting some of this on Facebook, so people can really know who I am, I thought about what they might say, and if I ran into some of them how I might act, and I figured I would act sheepish and embarrassed. How lame is that?!